Episode 10 - I Don't Understand

[dessybella]

- Erika (Bad Girls Club)


Izzy did what she had to do, at the expense of my Bestie! 
I have no reason to be bitter at her for doing what she did, however it does mean it's time to step my game up - or could it be too late?

With Reynolds gone, it means I'm stuck in a corner. But hey, I did it to myself.
There goes my goal of winning the game... My fault!

[dessybella]

"That elimination cut me like a knife"

- Thoughts on the purple rock draw, losing my closest ally in the game

- I never wanted to cry in this game again, but I felt so close to Reynolds and I could see in his eyes that he was upset too. I feel like I let him down tbh.

- No longer trusting Izzy, and despite Ricky's plea to try and coax her back to our side, I don't think it's going to work. But admittedly, I don't hate Izzy, I don't hate anybody. Just disappointed.

- Frustrated of being in minority, plus with my friend leaving the game - and Izzy turning on me - I feel somewhat alone now.

- Have I emotionally checked out of this game?

Please for the love of the Gods, I do not wanna be the next Derby Lol!

[dessybella]

"I'm basically the Ragdoll"

- "To flip, or to flop" is really the question being asked here. Based on the events of what's been going to, I'm down to do either or.

- Carlos and Izzy have been influencing me to take out Ricky, which I do buy into because even I knew he was a threat but I stayed because, he was gonna be a bigger target than myself.

- Gaining knowledge that the Vets + Kate are trying to pull in Mandy, and with my position also as a swing vote, I went to Mandy about it to see what we could do, I could follow Mandy's lead on this one and wherever she goes, I'll go. That way, I still have that person who's gonna be a bigger target than me.

- Telling Kate about my conversations with Izzy, and how the latter is not afraid to take out the former. Where does Kate stand?

- Finally, where do I really stand?