Episode THREE

[nicole]

0:00-35 Emily voted out thoughts on that. I was pissed. But Didnt have much say as a coach.
0:35-1:02 Davis is only one who talks strategy with me.
1:02-2:00 Salvation cup decision. Gave it to Carlos even thoough he drives me INSANE.
2:00-2:17 wish I didnt give it to carlos but felt it would be a good olive branch for him to trust me. Even though he prob shouldnt

[nicole]

0:00-0:28 visiting dylan... forgot my phone in NJ... I am an idiot so I couldnt check skype that often this weekend.
0:28-1:00 challenge is duel formation. Not a fan of these duel challenges! We need something we can work together in.
1:00-2:11 tribe already decided who was doing what part without my consideration. Derby as balance when she is on a boat?!?! DUMB. Patia as words when she has problems spelling?!?!? NOT SMART Carlos doing math when he literally skips class everyday?!?! WHY
2:11-2:58 Davis is our last hope to force a tiebreaker. I kind of just want them to lose :X They dont deserve to be victorious BY THE HANDS OF ME when they suck at challenges. I am a bad coach but their incompetency is ANNOYING.

[nicole]

Ricky and Mandy together are basically telling me to make my tribe go to tribal council. I am so over it. I don't like being told what to do. like OF COURSE they want me to go to tribal... it means they are safe! I am just annoyed that they are like "nicole it is dumb if you win" blah blah blah making it seem like my tribe is going to vote me out if I don't throw a potential tiebreaker. BUT IN REALITY, ricky jus doesn't want to go to tribal and potentially get dethroned himself because he knows he made himself a huge ass target along with the mental tribe. I just HATE being PUSHED to do things I DONT WANT TO DO

I get that maybe I am contradicting myself because I said I wanted my tribe to lose, but it is different when it is my choice instead of having two people who don't know FUCK about whats going on trying to tell me what is best for MY GAME. Like now they are talking in the chat ways to make davis lose. I am sorry but I am not helping them with this. I may not like my tribe but I am loyal and I am not throwing them under the bus for two tribes who will definitely not have my best interest. Even if my tribe WILL dethrone me, I'd rather play with the devils I know than the ones I don't. 


[4/25/16, 10:01:36 AM] Ricky: that was me nagging nicole to not try as hard in a tie-breaker can be a non issue
[4/25/16, 10:01:52 AM] Ricky: cause i feel like if physical stays in reign carlos/davis have a good shot at controlling the game and dethroning nicole.
[4/25/16, 10:02:08 AM] Ricky: if we can make it so we keep nicole safe, in her dethronement instead of her being dethroned on their tribe
[4/25/16, 10:02:11 AM] Ricky: thats better
[4/25/16, 10:02:26 AM] mandy .: yeah, I agree with that
[4/25/16, 10:02:48 AM] mandy .: I feel like I heard they were considering my dethroning her just for fun
[4/25/16, 10:03:18 AM] Ricky: I think the next time they lose, they'll dethrone her.
[4/25/16, 10:03:43 AM] Ricky: so she has a choice if davis ties it -- to be dethroned by us and saved, or dethroned by them and a sitting duck lol


UGH I AM SO FUCKING PISSED AT THE TWO OF THEM. they seriously need to shut up in that coaches chat. They are pissing me off so much. 

[nicole]

On another note I am really having a hard time playing with my friends. I have my boyfriend on one side, and ricky on the other. The way ricky has been treating me so far in the game is really irritating me. It's just the way he talks to me and I feel like he does it to get on my nerves. I hate the potential of something happening between us because with his attitude I know it might. I wouldn't do anything to jeopardize our friendship but he gets SO crazy about these games that if/when I don't agree with him... it will not be pretty. And honestly, this game will not be fun when that time comes. It is not even fun right now!

With Dylan, I worry about that too! Idk how this will play out. I honestly am already stressed out thinking about it. I don't want to play with these people lol. It was a really, really, really bad idea. I couldn't go to bed last night because I was basically having an anxiety attack about isurv1vor and being pushed to do shit by ricky! Like, he doesn't really understand how frustrating he is and what a hard place he is putting me in.

Like, seriously a fucking panic attack from being so mad/pissed at this whole coaches conversation thing. I try to take the game less seriously, but it is hard because i don't want to just be a sheep and follow other people! It just isn't me, so i struggle with it!

[nicole]

I look so rough in all those videos. Yikes.

[nicole]

0:00-0:20 Just completed the dare challenge. It went horribly. I dont blame him I am just still annoyed with ricky/mandy
0:20-0:51 really upset with them. genuinly concerned about my position in this game. Idk what to expect at tribal. I really wanted to be safe.
0:51-1:53 I dont trust ricky/mandy's tribes for a second. Not wanting to put my fate in mandy/rickys hands. I am a very obvious target and they are being selfish.
1:53-2:27 Idk how I will go forward in this game. Dont want to work with ricky that much. He is driving me insane. I need other people I can put my trust in. Not putting all my faith in ricky.
2:27-2:57 Told Davis the truth about ricky/mandys plan... we will see IDK what will happen. Need less stress vote me out lmao. JK but really.

[nicole]

0:00-0:41 NO WORDS for that tribal council. Derby voted out. not happy about that but she is on a boat... so idk i get it.
0:41-1:12 Sandy your little fing twist. ricky and mandy get to choose two people who are vulnerable. Happy it wasnt a school yard pick. But still BS!
1:12-2:11 ricky decides racine and carlos to get put up. ANNOYED. ricky did NOT think about this logically and completely used it to get revenge on racine for voting him out in a different game. SO SELFISH. Cannot believe he didnt put carlos and davis up together.
2:11-2:32 idk where my coaching stands. lets see i guess. my tribe down to 3 people, i would definitely be open to working with them because I am pissed at ricky and how selfish he was with that vote!